“No matter how many times I prayed, no matter how long I prayed, it was a continuous cycle of sin. I asked for forgiveness everyday but nothing ever truly changed. I thought the harder I prayed for what I wanted, God would give it to me. So I literally prayed for future success, a good job, and everything I wanted. I prayed every day to God that He would forgive my sins but that prayer soon became repetitive and I just said it out of habit. I thought if I prayed hard enough, I would be able to see visions of Jesus and see what heaven is really like. I thought those who were able to pray in tongues (those who endlessly prayed in an ineligible sounds) were truly filled with the Holy Spirit and were speaking in the secret language of the angels.
I questioned: If Jesus died for our sins as preached by all churches, shouldn’t sin have ended there? Why was sin a continuous repetition for every single human being? Why did God make this world so miserable and a constant struggle for justice and happiness? How was it possible to be completely sinless if our very nature was sin and we were born with it into a sinful world? Everything changed when I met Reverend Esther at Grace Road Church. Through my mom who was spiritually thirsty and was tired of listening to pastors who talk about their own stories or lessons based on a few Bible verses repeatedly, discovered Reverend Esther of Grace Road Church on YouTube after countless searching for churches all over the world…. “